“Show me the version of you I can fall in love with over and over. – Linda J. Wolff
In this, “Soul Survival Quote Seedling,” I write of an incident that made me believe of angels, helped me believe I had a purpose to write. The 1983 Jeep Cherokee spins, 365 degrees of tires and black ice. Snow flying like darts with a northern wind. I correct the steering only to ride this Ferris Wheel ride again. I hit the brakes but its too late.
Tires grab the embankment; the Jeep flips, I see a video playing in rewind. Upright now in a snowy field, blinking through a shattered window, winter seeps in. I just sit. Rapping on the window. Voices. Voices yelling “Are you OK? I nod yes, realizing GOD sent his angel with better plans.
I can’t explain to the police officer why I am not cut or bruised, especially since there was shattered glass everywhere. My ribcage molded itself around the center console. But I did not hurt, nor was there any pools of blood. I came from the wreckage unscathed. GOD had put his hand upon me or an angel watched over me. What’s your analogy of this incident?
Just cause they say you’re done.
Doesn’t mean anything.
There’s still a seedling of hope inside you.
©Linda J. Wolff (Google), and “Soul Survival Quote Seedling.”
In this Quote Expectations. I’m going to indulge on words, relationships, and expectations. It’s clear that one can sabotage their own relationship with a potential life partner. I’m not a marriage counselor or a therapist. I’m actually in an experimental stage of my own relationship. Lately, I have set the bar too high in expectations of my relationship with my boyfriend. And, this was completely wrong of me.
In this site, I’m going to reveal myself in the raw, and real of true emotions. I am not afraid of what others opinions are of me. I totally love whom I’ve become in my imperfections and perfections. There is no ONE who can judge me except for myself.
I have come to accept the beautiful soul of whom I’ve become. Most of you who follow me, know I bare honesty and integrity in my true life experiences shared through my poetry and stories.
I was fantasizing about living together. Or marriage. Granted, we have been seeing each other for awhile. Yet, I did something that almost pushed him away for good. I talked about my expectations to him. Thus, creating this standard he must follow. Over time, I literally pushed him away, cause he felt he couldn’t meet my needs. He couldn’t handle the pressure.
We all move in different circles. Some of us at a faster pace. Some slower. Words cut deep to the soul, and I made my love feel inadequate. I felt horrible when he poured his feelings to me. I sincerely apologized for my actions and begged him to forgive me.
Love without expectations or doubt.
Listen to your heart, no matter the price.
No matter the price.
Quote expectations are the series of pieces titled after meditative deep thinking of true-self, I’ve begun in the last 24 months as I have struggled to manage the loss of too many deaths in this time frame. In this post specifically, I have embraced the duality of Self I’ve experienced: loss/in grief, not/in pain, love/as part, how I perform myself in mother/girlfriend role and endure.